Monday, June 30, 2014

My self journey through yoga

The past 4 weeks have been incredible. 

Doing the yoga teacher training at 3B Yoga has changed my life, indefinitely.  23 girls were brought together 6 days a week for a whole month, to learn more about ourselves. (plus learn a little yoga. ;) 
This last month was challenging and draining, and there were days that I just really didn't want to go. I was still working at my job every day from 7am-12:30pm, then I would go straight to yoga training from 1:00pm until 5pm, then on top of the training each day, we had to observe 8 classes during the month and practice yoga ourselves 6 days a week. Then I would go home to do homework and study and write papers, all while trying to fit in laundry and playing with Ellie for a few minutes before she went to bed. It was emotionally draining for me at times, and also physically draining- (my body was exhausted from so much yoga!) But I knew that this training was something that I wanted to accomplish, and something that I needed to accomplish for myself. In the end, the sacrifice was totally worth it. I just want everyone in the world to take this training!! :)

I will forever cherish the time that was spent in our yoga circle each day, and with the girls who I now call my family! I cherish the words and lessons that my guru, Amy taught me. She inspired me every day to be myself. I am truly grateful for the past month- I can't believe it is over. 
WAHOO for now being a certified yoga instructor! I can't wait for my self journey through yoga to continue for the rest of my life. 

Our very last assignment was to write our "yoga philosophy". What we think the definition of yoga is. I decided that I would share it with you.

My view of yoga has changed dramatically over the past 4 weeks. I always knew there was a deeper meaning and purpose to the practice, past the postures and the flexibility, but I didn’t fully understand what that deeper meaning was until I took this teacher training. A great love and appreciation for the practice has been a result, as well as a dose of humility, courage, internal strength, peace, and a quieter mind have begun to develop inside of me. “Yoga is not something that you do, it is something you become.” was a quote by Celia that grasped my attention. Yoga is a process.. a journey. Not a destination. There is always somewhere to go further with the mind, body, or the soul while practicing. I love that each practice is a new beginning. A new day. A new time to dive deeper into myself to conquer the vrittis in my mind. I can feel that yoga will help me attain and keep physical, mental, and spiritual happiness, and help me to love and respect myself in a way that I never understood. During these past 4 weeks, I feel that I have begun to cure that “disease of perfection”, that feeling of always having to be at a certain level in order to feel accomplishment. I truly can now say that when I practice, I have learned that it isn’t about being able to be good at a posture. It is about knowing where my body is at that specific time of life, and accepting that with humility.  “Practice and all is coming.” (Sri. K Pattabhi Jois)  
I have learned to enjoy the journey of becoming, and not focus on that desire for an end result. It is an incredible feeling to be able to turn inward, turn off the mind chatter, and feed my spirit through breath and gratitude towards simply being able to come to my mat.

I hope to share with my future students these impressions that I have felt during my training, and to ultimately give them the knowledge that they need in order to look inside themselves and find the true happiness that comes from the practice. I hope to teach others that yoga is much more than postures or flexibility. That there is a deeper meaning of why we come to our mats each day. The practice is for us individually. And in a class setting, we just happen to be a room full of spirits uniting breath together to feed ourselves spiritually, mentally, and physically. I hope to aspire others to step outside the mind, and dive deep into the soul to find that internal peace and love for themselves. To liberate themselves in ways that only they know. To detach themselves from any harsh thoughts and to let go of comparison during the practice, and ultimately in their daily lives. I hope to teach others all of these things, and many more that I learn along this journey, through my thoughts, words, and actions in my own daily life— not just in a class setting. I aspire to be someone who can lift and enlighten others to help them find their journey to their own self. I am grateful for this experience. An experience that has just begun growing in my heart, and I know will continue to grow throughout my life, helping me become me. 

Just attempting some fun stuff 

Marilyn, me & Sarah

My family circle

My guru, Amy  (photo by Molly)

So much love for these ladies!

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