Monday, February 27, 2012

Music Monday

I have a woman crush on Lana del Ray.....



If you liked it, check out my fav song of hers here.

My weekend in pictures

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My amazing & beautiful friends threw me a bachelorette party on Friday!! It was so much fun...and may or may not have gotten a little crazy.... ;) We went to Happy Sumo then up to the cottage for some games....  "What happens at a bachelorette party, stays at a bachelorette party" But I can tell you this....everyone agrees that they have never laughed harder in their lives..I think my abs still hurt from the laughter.

I have the BEST friends in this WORLD!!!

cousins Ellie & Cody are the cutest together!

They both LOVE Dan:)



I had to put this pic up of Ellie sleeping...Look at those cute cheeks!!!


Alix Loosle took some bridal pics of Ry & I and I can't WAIT to show you them! So until then, here is a quick phone pic of my bouquet.



10  MORE DAYS until I marry the man of my dreams!!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

The Love Competition

My bestie Whitney, whom I LOVE, showed this to me.

This film is absolutely captivating, inspiring, and beautiful.


The Love Competition from Brent Hoff on Vimeo.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Thursday, February 16, 2012

MY side of the story....

Ryan and I have a pretty sweet story, folks.
And I thought it would be fun to share it with those of you who don't know how we became such a RAD couple. ;)

But Ryan jokes that our versions are very different. Every time I tell people how we met, he stops me and tells them the "real" story.
So, I told him to write down "his" version of our story and I would write down mine.

Here is our story through my eyes: make sure to read his side in the next post after this one...




The first memory I have of Ryan was when he came over to my house in the 8th grade with some friends. The guys started boxing with some gloves that we had and started wrestling each other while the girls sat and rolled their eyes. The next thing I knew, Ryan had jumped on his friend’s back as a joke, and his friend backed up into our basement wall, which caused a hole in the wall from Ryan's butt! I started panicking about what my parents would say about the hole, so I slowly made my way upstairs to tell my mom. She started laughing! I was relieved to find that my parents didn't care. My brother Dan was in the room when I told her, and he said, "I have the best idea". As all of my friends moved to the backyard to play, Dan thought it would be funny to scare Ryan. (keep in mind that Ryan had never met Dan so he wouldn't have known that he was my brother) So Dan, who had a beard and long hair, took off his shirt, grabbed his shotgun, and walked outside. I was inside of the house with my mom and we were watching all of this happen through the window, laughing so hard. haha

He walked out and said in a threatening voice, "Who's the dead man that put the hole in the wall?!"

I seriously think Ryan peed.his.pants.........

hahahaha I still remember his face and how terrified he was! I came outside and told him that Dan was my brother and he was actually really nice....and wasn't going to shoot him....and that it was all just a joke. I think Ryan was mortified after that experience.
By the way….that imprint of Ryan’s butt is still in my wall after all these years…..


In 9th grade, Ryan and his guy friends and me & my girlfriends all became very close friends. We did everything together! Longboarded to Harmons every day, jumped off our roof onto the tramp, and made funny videos at the park. After I "went out" with one of Ryan's best friends for a few weeks, Ryan and I started crushing on each other. Before we knew it, we had our first kiss in my basement! I was his first kiss and he was mine. :) Everyone say it, AWWWWWWWWWW.


Yes, I found the journal entry from back in 9th grade when we first started liking each other!

 Ryan still has his shoes from 9th grade where we doodled on them together in class :)


Ryan was the FUNNIEST kid in junior high, and I think most people would agree with me! Him & his friends wore these ugly jumpsuits every friday and had "turtle neck Tuesday" and did funny, crazy stuff ALL the time. Both Ry & I got "best dressed" together in 9th grade in the yearbook, and "best smile" together in 7th grade.--before we even knew each other! So that was kind of fun.

Ry & I "went out" for about a year, then in the fall of our sophmore year, I broke up with him.. I am not really sure why.... But after the breakup, I rarely saw Ryan in high school, and our friends sort of went our separate ways. I started dating someone else and so did he. But one time during our senior year, the old gang got together and all went bowling. Ry and I took some pics in the photo booth that we still have .


After high school, I only saw Ry a couple of times. Then he served an LDS mission, while a lot was happening in my life. I had gotten pregnant with Ellie and got married. When I got word of his mission homecoming, I went to it with my friend Whitney.
During this time, I had gotten a divorce from my ex husband, and was living the single mommy life with Ellie.

Since seeing Ryan at his homecoming,we saw each other once in the halls at UVU in the Spring of 2011, then he wrote me a message on Facebook. He just wanted to see how I was doing and what I was up to in life, and we caught up for a little bit, then that was it. Then he messaged me later that year in August, telling me that we should get the old group together and go boating! I said, HECK YES! So we planned a day and went out on the lake with our old group of friends. It was SO much fun! I still didn't really think much of Ryan more than a friend, just because I thought he was still dating his old girlfriend. But shortly after we went boating, he wanted to plan a playdate with his little sisters and me & Ellie. I was still oblivious, I guess....haha I still didn't think much of it! So we took the girlies to the park and it was a blast.


About a week later, Ryan asked me on our first date. I guess by then, I finally caught on that he was a little interested....ha So, I said yes! And the date was perfect....I don't think I have ever laughed that hard in my life! And Ryan was so easy to talk to. I remember thinking that I have never had better conversation with anyone else before. Later that night, we kissed. :) It was the best. ever.



I want to share a special story about another date that we went on shortly after our first.
One night, we went on the Sundance chair lift at night during the full moon. We were cuddling up to each other and we somehow got on the topic of my mother. Then it became silent for a moment, and he said, “Did you ever get flowers on your porch back in the day?”

Then it hit me. I instantly became overwhelmed with tears and my heart swelled up in my chest. It immediately hit me that Ryan was the one who had left anonymous flowers on my porch every June 3rd all throughout high school. June 3rd is the anniversary of when my mother passed away. I always wondered who left them on my porch for those few years, but never found out.
I started crying on the chair lift and said, “that was you?.... of course that was you.” I cried for a good few minutes after that…..I couldn’t believe that he was the one who did that.
It was at that moment that I knew that I was in love with Ryan and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. He has always had a deep love and concern for me, even throughout the years when we were disconnected. He remembered that date after all those years……. I can’t explain to you how much that meant to me that he did that.


Ryan and I have hung out pretty much every day since our first date, and it has been complete BLISS! I still can't believe that I am marrying my junior high love.... It couldn't be more perfect. :)

I am so grateful for Ryan in my life and for the person that he is. I know that everything happened for a reason, because we both probably wouldn't have appreciated each other as much if we hadn't had gone through what we did before we started hanging out again. I am grateful for knowing him for such a long time, and knowing the kind of person that he is and always has been, so that I don't have any doubts that he would do anything to hurt me. He is the most kind, respectful, thoughtful, loyal person that I know. And he is AMAZING with little Ellie. Not to mention, the best looking!! How did I get so lucky?!?!



Read "HIS side of the story" HERE

HIS side of the story....

****Make sure you read "My side of the story" before you read his side of the story....*****


Ok blog people, I’ve never really blogged so I’m going to have to ask you to bear with me on this. Also, I think you should know before I begin, that I am really going to have a hard time keeping this short, so I apologize.


I am glad I have this opportunity to let everybody hear my side (aka the true side) of the story. Anybody who knows Michelle, knows that her memory is not necessarily… well it’s just not that good. This may get a little pathetic on my part at points, so buckle up people. Here it goes.

It all started in the 9th grade when we began hanging out. We could probably jump back to the one time I went to her house in the 8th grade when I accidently put a hole in her wall with my buttocks, which resulted in a shotgun and a shirtless, bearded Daniel, but I have tried to forget that particular moment, so we won’t. I remember liking Michelle, but before I was able to confess my crush to my guy friends (kind of a big deal) one of my best friends, Kenny, beat me to the punch! That was it. Too late. So I had to keep my mouth shut and watch Kenny and Michelle “go out” for several months. I still have a vivid memory of Kenny and Michelle having a tickle fight on my front lawn. I forced myself to laugh and act like I was having a good time, when really I was pained with jealousy. What do you do when one of your best friends is with the girl of your fancy?! I did what any good friend would do. I waited until about a week after they broke up.

Believe it or not, Michelle was my very first kiss! I would like to say it was in some romantic spot, or riding bareback on a horse in the rain, but truthfully we were in her basement, underneath a bean bag. It was still magical though.

We were together for about a year, which is a pretty big deal in the 9th and 10th grade, or at least it was for me. Unfortunately for me, moving from junior high to high school brought more options dating-wise. I suddenly didn’t look so good compared to all the juniors and seniors who, of course, were interested in my Michelle. To say the least, I got the boot. Truthfully, I took it kind of hard. Maybe a little too hard. About a year after Michelle broke up with me I was sitting at my house, surfing the web, when a pop-up came on the computer, inviting me to enter a poem to be published. Bored, and apparently a little depressed (remember this was a year later), I decided to write a poem that pretty much sums up, in an extremely “emo” perspective, how I was still secretly in love with Michelle. Though the thought of me ever writing such a poem causes me to cringe, I will lower myself even more into the depths of humility and share what no man or woman should ever have to read. It is titled, The Scar That Bleeds…. And no, I’m not joking.


The Scar That Bleeds

An old wound heals, but is it for good
A scar that occasionally bleeds.
On the outside it’s healed, but on the inside it’s cut,
It’s cut but nobody sees.
They say that a cut can heal within time,
But it just traps all the pain inside.
It leaves a mark for all to see
As it tries so hard to hide,
The open gash, the agony that’s caused,
The way I used to feel.
The others think that the hurt is gone
But only I know what is real.



Remember how I warned you at the beginning that it would get pretty pathetic? Umm… yeah. Thankfully I didn’t share the poem with anybody, let alone tell anyone that it was about Michelle, until we got back together. I still wonder why I said anything.

I didn’t really see or talk to Michelle much for about 7 years. We had both gone our separate ways, and it wasn’t until last year that we reconnected.

I served a mission in Mexico and while I was there found out that Michelle was married and had a little girl (which happens to be the sweetest little girl in the world!) so I figured that ship had long sailed.

Now, this next part I’m about to share is very special to me, and it’s hard for me to communicate clearly the gravity of the experience. Let me just say that there are happenings in this life that are mere chance. I believe that. But I also believe that some things are more than just luck. There was some force, greater than myself, pushing me towards Michelle.

Several times in the past year and a half I have been on Facebook and stumbled across Michelle's Facebook page. It sounds so crazy, but I would literally feel my heart move inside my chest. I say that because it was such a strong feeling that it seemed more physical than emotional. It’s so hard for me to explain. That is the only way I can think of to describe it. Anyway, I would seriously have an internal battle with myself because I just felt crazy! I hadn’t really talked to Michelle in years! She broke up with me in the 10th grade and I felt like I still had feelings for her?! I felt like I was that weirdy that all the girls talk about at the hair salon. Oddly enough though, I had that same strong feeling and that same internal battle several times over the months. I mostly tried to ignore it.

One day I was at school and I saw Michelle in the halls. I saw it as an opportunity to shoot her a little message on Facebook and casually start up a long-lost interaction. She wrote me back. I wrote her back. Nothin. She totally neglected to write me back! Any and all confidence I had was shot. That was in February. By July my confidence was somewhat replenished and I decided to have another go. She wrote me back. This time I realized that I would have to act fast, so I immediately suggested we get our 9th grade group of friends together for a little reunion and go boating. I didn’t have the guts to ask her out and needed a more casual setting to feel things out.

I hadn’t told any of my friends about my long-harbored crush, but it only took the 5-minute car ride to the lake for them to realize that I had feelings for Michelle. I couldn’t help but be flirty and obvious. I have never played anything cool in my life. Luckily, Michelle was oblivious.

After boating I casually let Michelle know that I was going to be babysitting my little sisters over the next couple of weeks and suggested we do a play-date with the girls. Anyone else would obviously see my ulterior motives, but Michelle was, once again, oblivious to my efforts.
Yes, I finally built up the courage to ask her out, and since then you will rarely find us apart. I still can’t believe she said yes to marrying me. I consider myself the luckiest man in the world! She brings out the best in me and I have never been happier! I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with my two girls!

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

My weekend in pictures

Hope you all had a fabulous weekend!
Mine started off by seeing The Vow with some of my favorite ladies-- I think there was maybe two guys in that whole theater. HA I decided to spare Ryan by not dragging him to it. The movie was decent, definitely your typical chick flick!


Since Ryan's birthday is on Valentine's Day, (!) I told him that for the rest of our lives, we are splitting up Valentine's Day and his birthday, because I think that would be super lame for him to get ME something on HIS birthday! right?!? Not happening. So, I made him promise me to not even say the word 'Valentine 'on February14th, because that was going to be HIS day. :)

So, we decided to celebrate Valentine's Day the weekend before. It was great! We started off the day exchanging our gifts that we had made each other, (we promised each other we would each only spend MAX $10 on a handmade gift to each other) I decided to make him a countdown banner of the days until we get married. On each flag of the banner, I wrote something that I am excited for when we are married! Here is a sneak peak of what they looked like......



After I gave Ryan the banner I had made him, he started smiling and handed me my present. He had made me a countdown flip calendar for the days until we get married! HA! We had both made each other pretty much the same thing.....I guess we both must be a little excited to get married ;) On each page of the calendar that he made me, he had written a memory of us. It was easily the best present i've ever gotten!! I LOVE reading a memory each day. SO cute. I really think from now on, we should make each other something cheap and thoughtful for Valentine's day....those are the best kinds of presents anyways right?? Oh, and I made him PROMISE to not get me flowers. I am more of the kind of girl who likes flowers on random days....any day but the expected
Valentine's Day. :)

Then we got couples massages....mmmmmm.......We were in heaven! Definitely could get used to that.

Then we headed up to Sundance to the Tree Room where we had a $14 scallop-- Yes, that is singular... We couldn't stop laughing because we just paid $14 dollars for one tiny scallop. Atleast give us TWO, right?! come on......But atleast the steak and elk were yummy and worth the money....I think. ;) 
Ryan happened to snag a Groupon for the Tree Room, so that is why we were fancy just this one time.
 It was fun!


Sunday was our friend Anthony's (Wang's) birthday, so I decided to put together a little surprise birthday party for him and Ryan, since his birthday was a couple days later. It was a lot of fun! And a lot of people showed up.
I should seriously be a cake decorator....awesome, right?........


Then on Monday night, Ryan took me to see Matt Kearney in concert. It was so much fun! He came down in to the crowd and walked right by us while he was singing.


I wanted to make Ryan's Birthday special because let's be honest, I am sure he hasn't had the best birthdays in the past with it being on Valentine's Day. Ellie and I made him breakfast in the morning before he went to school, then I gave him his gifts----I may have spoiled him a little....but I just LOVE birthdays, okay??

Each gift had a small tag on it:

"Something for your closet" - and I got him a shirt
"Something for our future home" - and I got him this cute print
"Something for your feet, in case they get cold ;) pun." -- and I got him some matching dress socks....I don't think he owns one pair of matching socks. ha

"Something for your flexibility" - I got him a gift card to 3B Yoga to get some sweet Lulu Lemon gear.
"Something for Tonight"-- and I got him a little Cheese-tasting notebook-- (we love trying new exotic cheeses and always talk about getting a notebook to write down the different kinds of cheeses that we try)
"Something for your office"- I got him  a frame with pics of me, him and Ellie in it
"Something to eat" - his favorite candy bar
"Something for your ears" -- I bought us The Civil Wars tickets!!
"Something for the both of us" - 2 movie tickets (hopefully for Star Wars 3D because that looks aaawwweessooomme.
"Something for March 30th" - (we have Jazz tickets that night) So I got him an old school John Stockton Jersey

After he got off work, I took him up to the cottage and surprised him with a platter of different cheeses and bread with some bubbly :) It was so yummy! Then I made him dinner and we watched Lord of the Rings (HECK YES!)


It was a great weekend.
Thanks for being born, Ryan! xoxo

Friday, February 10, 2012

I'd like to think i'm famous....




I wonder who's sexy voice that is??

Thursday, February 9, 2012

catching up....

Ellie update!

It has been a while since I have given an update on Ellie....but I do have an explanation. You see, Ellie HATES pictures. Every time she sees me with my camera in my hands, she freaks out, yells "no picture mama!" and runs away. SO, I have to be very sneaky with my camera if I am going to have any toddler pictures of this girl!

Other than despising having her picture taken, Ellie is at such a fun age right now! She is learning so much-- She is recognizing her shapes, colors, alphabet, and numbers really well and loves to repeat them to me. Ellie is also eager to start going potty on the big girl toilet! (which is great for momma) She has been successful a few times, so we are just going to keep trying it!

Some of Ellie's favorite words/phrases:

  • "Clocklate" for chocolate
  • "mama, I wanna go to the pink temple"
  • "play the YA YA song, momma!" --she loves the song "fighter girl" by Mason Jennings
  • "Peace out guys"
  • " you are beautiful momma."
  • "OW OW, daddy Ryan" .......I may or may not have taught her that one;)
  • "Airplanes are scary"
  • "I'm not scared any more"
  • "Play with Bella Noelle?" -Bella & Noelle are Ryan's sisters
  • "AH, MAN"
  • "I go time-out?"

Ellie LOVES the show, Yo Gabba Gabba. Daddy Ryan bought her a foofa doll and she is obsessed with it!

Ellie loves to put on her "princess skirt" and make cupcakes with her play kitchen

Ellie was testing out Baby Mary's birthday present....ha

Ellie and cousin Cody are so cute together!!

Silly girl

Cutie pie

R+M engagements

Please forgive me if I seem narcissistic by posting so many pictures of us, but I just love them all and wanted to share them with you! Alix Loosle did such a fabulous job! We wanted to create a European feel with an alley, an old car, and a clothes line. And she did such a great job tying it all together with her vintage-like photography. She is amazing.. I highly recommend her! Check out her website HERE



Isn't my fiance SMOKIN hot??













I love wearing my mother's diamond!


Have any favorites?
Check out more from this shoot HERE

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

mismatched bridesmaid dresses

I have seen this recent trend of having your bridesmaids in different dresses and hues of the same color scheme. And I fell in LOVE! I think it is more fun and shows off their different personalities, as well as spices up the bridal party, in my opinion. 

 Here are some pics that I have used for inspiration--







So, I decided that was what I wanted to do with my bridesmaids. I have TEN bridesmaids! and I am SO excited. Ryan has 9 groomsmen, so it is going to be one big party!!

I made up an inspiration board for my girls, and gave them a bunch of links to dresses that I loved. And from there, I just let them pick out their own dress! I figured it would be more fun to have them pick out a dress that they actually like and that fits them well,  vs. me picking out a dress that most of them probably wouldn't love or wear again. :)

It is coming together so great, and I can't wait until we get some fun pics of all of my besties in their awesome dresses at the wedding!!

The inspiration board:

Does anyone else love this idea as much as I do?? :)