Thursday, July 7, 2011

letting go...

I don't know if it's because I woke up on the good side of the bed today, or if it's because it's getting closer to the weekend, but I seem to have a softer heart today.
For the last year, I have held in some pretty big resentments and grudges. I always seemed to justify it because it was for "good reasons". But today it all just hit me. I realized that in order for me to take a big step in my progress and success in this life, I need to let go of those resentments that cloud my mind on a daily basis. Get rid of some of the negative energy that I have held in for so long. and make room for new and positive thoughts that will help me grow, not keep me from growing.

"Resentments are the blocks that hold us back from loving ourselves and others."
 -Brad Hewlett

I love this quote. This past year, I have been learning to love myself again. But what I didn't realize was that those resentments were holding me back from progressing.

So how do you let go of resentments you ask? I am no therapist, doctor, or specialist by any means...I just know what helped me. I was sitting at work thinking about some people that I have resentment towards. I texted some friends and got their numbers from them. I sent a short text telling them that I want the past to be behind us. That was basically all that was said-- it didn't need to be lengthy and detailed, and I don't need to start hanging out with them again. I just needed to get that weight off my shoulders and let them know that I want to let the past be the past.
It was one of the hardest things i've ever done. . . . but I know it was what I needed to do.


I feel better. I feel lifted. There are still others whom I have resentment towards, but those will take time. LOTS of time. But i'm okay with that. Baby steps, I keep telling myself. But as for now, I can be free of those few grudges that were binding my happiness.
Life is too short to be unhappy.

4 comments:

  1. You are amazing! I am trying to achieve this as well, just forgiving and forgetting. It's hard, but like you said 'life is to short to be unhappy'. Thanks for being so open and real, it is really needed. Thank you.

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  2. You're awesome Michelle. You really are.

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  3. Beautifully put and a wonderful step. What a great world it would be if we could all do this.

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  4. You truly are a wonderful person. I'm inspired by you daily, keep that head high, always have positive thoughts and know that others are rooting for you. xoxo
    P.S We should DEFINITELY get together again soon :)

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